Is this thing on?

by Michael  

I do well for myself. My job puts me in a higher tax bracket than most, but it's also taught me that you don't "do what you love" necessarily (though if you can, high five), you do what you can and make it pay off. In the last three years doing what I do (essentially editing), I've poured over billions of words, but written relatively few of my own. I hate that. 

 

in the last few years, I've attended a few symposiums and conferences, and collected a bunch of rejections, and I even managed to piss off a writing mentor who taught me, through his passive aggressive Facebook unfriending, that I don't need everyone to like me... My wife today pointed out that new ideas were kind of bullshit. We don't crave new ideas, we crave new VOICES. I feel like I knew that, but that I forgot it along the way. I have a voice, but I've lapsed in expressing it... Tonight, on my third glass of bourbon, I felt like I wanted to pick a fight. I started, and deleted, a ton of inflammatory Facebook posts. I want to be heard, but I know in my heart that the thousand or so audience on Facebook that I have isn't the answer... 

 

The answer is that I need to start writing again. Honestly, it's a lot like the engines on the titular battleship firing up in Battleship. Bad movie? Maybe. But someone wrote it, and I loved it anyway. And it doesn't matter if ANYONE loved it; someone wrote it... I need to write. I need to edit my  own work. I need to claim that time for myself no matter how selfish that feels. 

Matt needs to go through training with Mr. Joka and Dahlia for the war he's inherited from his imperfect parents. Alex needs to hire herself a failed pirate captain so she can go hunting the Çalympia somewhere in the unexplored vasts rumored to house the Grande Zembriond. The Barnum Boys need to start debunking,  and Noriko REALLY needs that damned internship with Doctor Terror and Doctor Terror needs her if their show will ever hope to beat The Son of Killgari! My mom's story is woefully incomplete...

 

I am a writer, and I need to get back to the business of writing, Viking battle scars be-damned...

 

 

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